The Mistake
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James stared off into space as he
stood there on the balcony of his apartment, his deep brown eyes blank as he
thought back to last night. He wasn’t sure how he felt right now as things
seemed all messed up inside his mind. Inside his thoughts he still was
trying to figure out what it was that made him feel this way. Sex wasn’t
the problem as he figured he really wasn’t all that much different than
any other 18 year old.
Still it kind of gnawed at him, the
way he had agreed so easily to Bill’s suggestion. Maybe it was the shots
of Vodka or maybe it was that he hadn’t eaten much during the day but that
shouldn’t make him feel this way. He leaned over the railing and stared
out the picturesque scenery in front of him. The view didn’t register as
all he could see was that dingy room and the bed where it all had happened.
He sighed a little as he thought
about it, wondering if maybe this time he had let himself go too far? Maybe
not he thought but down inside he knew he was just kidding himself. Least he
would have the rest of the weekend to think about how he would deal with it
come Monday which was a plus. Course too it would mean he would spend the
next few days worrying which wasn’t cool.
Hell not much had really ever gotten
to him like this and it made him nervous. James felt a small chill yet the
temperature outside was warm. He could feel the sun shining but it didn’t
warm him like normal. Maybe another hot shower would help but he doubted it.
Shit he had already taken three showers since getting home and they hadn’t
helped ease his mind. He supposed that maybe he just thought too much about
things but he had a rep to maintain.
At school he was this 6 foot tall
slender jock that had it all. He lived on his own and didn’t have to work
because the courts had made his parents pay for his living costs. What he
got he had managed to make do with, besides the apartment cost less than his
folks thought which gave him a few extra hundred each month.
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