Billy
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could manage to get the damn underwear off without making himself shoot
his load.
“I don’t know… depends.”
“Oh? Now it depends does
it? And just what does it depend on?” Mike replied, moving back to stand
as close as possible to Billy.
He had taken a threatening posture but Billy knew it was all a scam.
There had been a time when he was afraid of Mike, but not now. Now he knew
that Mike would never do anything to hurt him, never be away from his side. He just smiled as that thought filled
his mind. Mike was his; no one else could ever come close to making him feel
this way, which was a certainty that you could take to the bank.
Mike could feel Billy’s thoughts, he sensed the sudden security that
Billy was feeling and it amazed him. Billy used to be afraid at times, not
sure when he would jokingly look angry, but now he wasn’t, now he knew. A
slight chill crept through his body as he trembled a bit with the knowledge
dawning inside him that this wasn’t just a fling. This wasn’t something
that most kids thought of when they thought of getting it on, this was
something that had meaning, not just to him, but also to Billy.
In some ways he was feeling scared. It was an awesome responsibility
that he was about to take on. Doubts, hesitations, all crowded inside his
head as he moved and sat down on the bed. He needed time to understand what
he was doing, and yet, the more he looked at Billy the more certain he was
that this was right for him to do.
All those years of listening to people make fag jokes, comment on how
gross gay sex was, flooded through his mind as he stared over at Billy’s
angelic face. There was something peaceful about him, something dangerous
too and he realized that together they were heading into a whole new world
that neither of them knew much about.
He could feel his fingers tightening their hold on Billy’s hand. It
was reassuring to him that touch and he knew that no matter what lay ahead,
that he would be happy in the end. Mike also could tell that Billy was
feeling much of what he was, that fears of society, of his family was
clouding his thoughts.
Billy sat there, waiting for Mike, wondering how they were going to make
this work. He also worried about what Mike would say or do if he told him
about
Taylor
. Damn it,
he didn’t have to say anything actually but then if he didn’t and Mike
found out… shit he was getting ahead of himself here. They hadn’t done
anything yet, maybe they shouldn’t.
As that thought
entered his head, he felt his hand squeezed tightly by Mike. He glanced up
and saw a deep understanding of his
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